My first truth

my first truth
have been these tears
you saw them in my eyes
you've seen
desperation in its pureness
but I felt so ...
I felt so alive.

I'm always fearing the pain
why? isn't it wonderful to feel alive?
I hope this circle will stop:
feeling dead, suffering pain, feeling alive
in three moments full of beauty and love
it's like heavenly music that goes on and off
I want to overcome the fear
I want to stand the pain

I want to be alive